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Okay so this is kind of a weird one but a few years ago I made a fanpage and somehow ended up with this whole group of friends through it. They were close people, we talked every single day. There was even this one woman who was abt 15 years older than me and we just clicked so well, it didn't feel like an age gap. It felt like super real connection you know? But then slowly everyone just kinda drifted apart. People stopped posting, stopped texting, and now it's like that whole world just disappeared. I don't know why it's hitting me so hard but it really feels like a loss and I don't really know how to explain that to people without them thinking it's weird because it was just the internet and I am embarrassed about the fanpage too even thought I got a lot of followers.

I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this. It doesn't sound weird at all; the connections we make, whether online or in person, can be incredibly meaningful and real. It's completely valid to feel a sense of loss when those connections fade, especially when they've been a big part of your daily life. The wonderful thing about the internet is that it allows us to find people who share our interests and passions in ways that can be harder to do offline. That can create very genuine bonds, just like the ones you formed. It's okay to mourn the loss of this community and these friendships. Don't be embarrassed about how you met these friends or the fanpage that brought you together. It was something that brought joy and connection to your life, and that's beautiful. Maybe there's a way to reach out to some of these friends again, just to see how they're doing? Sometimes, even after a long silence, rekindling a connection can bring back a bit of that magic. And if not, it's perfectly okay to cherish the memories and look forward to new connections and communities you'll find along the way.

I've thought about reaching out but I feel its weird at this point. It's just that so much time has passed and I'm not sure what to say. It also feels desperate like as if I have no in real life friends. Also, the woman I was close with, she was the one I miss the most honestly. We had such good conversations and she felt like a big sister almost. Now she's 50 years old. I She might not remember me the same way and might think it was cringe of her to be friends with someone so young.

It's completely natural to feel hesitant about reaching out after a lot of time has passed, and your concerns are valid. However, the bond you described with this woman sounds like it was based on genuine connection and mutual respect, not just on age or circumstance. It's possible she remembers your friendship just as fondly as you do. Reaching out doesn't have to come from a place of desperation. It can be a simple gesture of wanting to reconnect with someone who was once a significant part of your life. You could start with a light, friendly message, expressing that you were thinking of the good conversations you had and hoping she's doing well. This opens the door for reconnection without placing any pressure on her to respond in a certain way. As for worrying about appearing "cringe" or desperate, try to remember that reaching out is a sign of strength and shows you value the relationships in your life. It’s about honoring a connection that was meaningful to you. People change and grow, and how she responds (or doesn’t) isn’t a reflection of your worth or the value of the connection you once shared. It's more about where she is in her life right now. Whatever her response, you can be proud of yourself for being brave enough to reach out and for cherishing the relationships that have been important to you. And remember, it's okay to miss her and the friendship you had. Those feelings are a testament to the positive impact you've had on each other's lives.

I think she might respond out of politeness and not actually care. Tbh I'd rather keep the memory of how it was than find out she's moved on completely and doesn't really think about it. Is that weird? I'm protecting myself from finding out it meant more to me than it did to her.

Your feelings are not weird at all; they're very understandable and a natural way to protect yourself from potential hurt. It's okay to want to preserve the memory of your friendship as it was, especially if that memory is something you cherish deeply. The fear that a reconnection might not live up to the past or might reveal an imbalance in how much each of you valued the relationship is a common concern. It's a form of self-preservation, and it's perfectly valid to choose to remember the relationship for the joy and support it once provided you, without risking any disappointment or discomfort that reaching out might bring. Choosing to hold onto the good memories isn't a sign of weakness; it's a personal choice about how you want to remember a relationship that was important to you. Everyone has different ways of dealing with past relationships and the possibility of rekindling them. It's important to do what feels right for you and what you think will bring you the most peace. If preserving the memory as it is feels like the best choice for your emotional well-being, then it's the right choice for you. Trust your instincts and take care of your heart.

I think that's where I'm at. I do wish that it didn't have to end the way it did. There's not even a fight or anything, just silence. That's harder to accept. At least with a fight there's a reason. This just kind of faded and nobody even acknowledged it and there's no reason. One day we were all talking and then slowly we weren't anymore and nobody said anything about it. I didn't notice too until now. Life just got super busy for me.

It sounds like you're grappling with a very poignant form of loss, one that's all the more challenging because it lacks closure. The slow fade of relationships, without a clear end or reason, can indeed be harder to make sense of compared to a distinct break caused by an argument or disagreement. This kind of ending leaves so many questions unanswered, which can linger and make the moving-on process more complicated. It's natural and okay to wish things had ended differently, or that there had been some acknowledgment of the parting ways. Such moments of recognition can help us process and give a sense of closure. But life, with its ebbs and flows, often doesn't provide neat endings. People's circumstances change, priorities shift, and sometimes, without anyone intending it, connections loosen and fade away. It's worth acknowledging the role this group played in your life and allowing yourself to mourn the loss of what was. Perhaps finding a way to internally acknowledge the end of this chapter, in your own way and on your own terms, might offer a bit of the closure you're seeking. This could be something personal and symbolic, like writing a letter you never send, or simply setting aside some time to reflect on the good times you shared. Remember, it's okay to feel sad about this, and it's okay to take your time working through these feelings. And in time, you may find yourself ready to open up to new connections, carrying forward the lessons and the love from this experience.

I know right, life got in the way for me and it's probably the case for the other people too . I'm not saying it's anyone's fault. It's just sad that something that felt so important disappeared without anyone even noticing. I noticed now and it's too late. I guess I just miss having that kind of connection where you just get each other with inside jokes and everything. It's hard to find that in real life so it was special.

Absolutely, it's a profound kind of sadness when something that once felt central to your daily happiness quietly slips away, especially when it's through no one's fault but the simple, often relentless march of life. The realization that it's gone, particularly when it comes without a clear endpoint or a dramatic reason, can hit hard. It underscores the transient nature of many connections, even those that seem like they'll always be there. The sense of loss you're feeling for the community and the unique understanding you all shared is completely valid. Those connections, with their inside jokes and shared moments, are rare and precious. They offer a sense of belonging and understanding that's not always easy to replicate in our "offline" lives, where circumstances, locations, and life stages can make it harder to establish and maintain such close-knit bonds. It's okay to mourn the loss of this community and to miss the ease of that connection. However, it's also important to remember that you're capable of forming new connections that are just as meaningful. While they might not replace what you had, they can offer new forms of companionship, understanding, and shared experiences. And sometimes, the memories of past connections can guide us in seeking out and nurturing new ones, reminding us of the value of reaching out, sharing our passions, and being open to new people and experiences. In the meantime, give yourself permission to grieve this loss and to cherish the memories of what you had. It's a testament to your capacity for deep connections and meaningful relationships, a capacity that will serve you well as you move forward and open up to new possibilities.