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I feel like i cant have a friend group like you see on tv

It's really common to feel that way, especially since TV shows tend to portray friend groups in an idealized and often unrealistic light. Real-life friendships are more complicated and nuanced than what's shown on screen. It's important to remember that every friendship and group dynamic is unique. What matters most is finding people who understand and support you, even if it doesn't look like the perfect circle of friends you see on TV.

is that kind of thing even possible as an adult?

Absolutely, it's possible to form close and meaningful friendships at any age, including as an adult. However, it might require a bit more effort and initiative compared to when you're younger. Life as an adult comes with more responsibilities and less free time, which can make socializing a bit more challenging. But by pursuing your interests, being open to new connections, and putting yourself in social situations—like joining clubs, classes, or online communities—you can meet people with similar values and build your own circle of friends. It might not happen overnight, but meaningful connections can definitely be formed throughout adulthood.

but even then it's like, how are all of your friends gonna be friends with each other too as an adult. life is so fragmented into wokr and other spaces

You're right, and that's an insightful observation. As adults, our lives are indeed more segmented, with different friends often coming from different parts of our lives, like work, hobbies, or past experiences. It's less common for all of one's friends to become a cohesive group like we often see in TV shows, mainly because everyone has their own schedules, responsibilities, and social circles. However, it's still possible to create smaller, interconnected groups based on shared interests or experiences. Sometimes, introducing friends from different parts of your life during gatherings or events can lead to new friendships forming within your wider circle. It might not result in a single, inseparable group, but you can foster a network of friends who know and occasionally meet each other. Remember, the quality of these connections matters more than having a large, interconnected friend group.

that idea scares me a lot cause i'm super different with all my friends so i cant unite them without everyone realizing i've been fake

It's completely natural to show different aspects of yourself with different friends, and it doesn't mean you're being fake. Each of us has many facets to our personality, and it's normal to highlight different parts depending on the context or the people we're with. This adaptability is a sign of emotional intelligence, not inauthenticity. If you're worried about bringing your friends together because of these differences, it might help to remember that your friends appreciate you for who you are with them. They might actually enjoy seeing different sides of you and could find common ground with each other through their connection to you. It’s also okay if not everyone clicks perfectly; what’s important is the effort and intention behind wanting to share parts of your life with them. Starting with small, low-pressure gatherings focused on shared interests or activities can ease everyone—including you—into the dynamics of a mixed friend group. Give yourself and your friends some credit; they might surprise you by how open and accepting they can be.

it's not just 'different sides' - i tell a lot of lies

I understand that must feel quite isolating and stressful for you. The fear of people discovering inconsistencies in what you've shared with them can be really daunting. It's brave of you to acknowledge this pattern, as recognizing it is the first step toward change. If you're ready to start making changes, consider small, manageable steps toward being more authentic with your friends. You don't have to correct every falsehood all at once or reveal everything to everyone simultaneously. Instead, you could begin by gradually sharing more of your genuine thoughts and feelings in new conversations, building a foundation of honesty moving forward. If there are specific lies that weigh heavily on you, think about talking to someone you trust deeply about this. It could be a friend, family member, or even a professional who can offer guidance on navigating these situations with sensitivity and integrity. Remember, everyone makes mistakes and has things they wish they could handle differently. The fact that you're reflecting on this shows your desire to cultivate more honest relationships, and that's a significant and commendable step.

i think i do it just because im so desperate to bond with eveyone that i just bend reality to present it however i think they'll like it best. i guess i could try to stop doing that in small ways and maybe discover that its not necessary. what if my reality is just truly objectionable though

It's understandable to want to connect with others and sometimes feel like you need to adjust aspects of your reality to do so. Many people share this fear—that their authentic selves might not be enough or might be outright rejected. Trying to fit into what we think others will like is a common coping mechanism, but it can be exhausting and isolating in the long run. Starting with small steps to be more authentic is a great approach. It allows you to gradually build confidence in being yourself while also testing the waters to see how people react. More often than not, you'll find that others appreciate honesty and vulnerability, as it makes you more relatable and trustworthy. If you're worried about your reality being "objectionable," it might help to remember that true connections are built on mutual respect and acceptance. Not everyone will resonate with your experiences or perspectives, and that's okay. It's more fulfilling in the long run to have fewer, more genuine relationships than many superficial ones based on falsehoods. Consider also that what you view as objectionable about your reality might not be as unappealing to others as you think. Everyone has their struggles, insecurities, and less-than-ideal aspects of life. Sharing those can sometimes be what brings people closer together. And if you find it particularly challenging to navigate these feelings or changes on your own, reaching out to a therapist or counselor can provide valuable guidance and support.

i never realized it was that bad to be kinda fake with people that it's something I should confess to my therapist. You got me feeling kinda messed up - do you think its really that serious?

I'm sorry if my response made you feel uneasy; that wasn't my intention. It's quite common for people to present different facets of themselves in various contexts, and wanting to connect with others isn't inherently bad. The line between adapting to social situations and feeling like you're being inauthentic can be very nuanced. Discussing these feelings with a therapist isn't about confessing or framing your actions as "bad." Rather, it's about exploring your feelings and behaviors in a supportive environment. A therapist can help you understand why you feel the need to bend reality to connect with others, and work with you on strategies to build confidence in being more authentically yourself. It's more about personal growth and finding comfort in your own skin than about judging your past actions. If these patterns of bending the truth to fit in are causing you stress or affecting your relationships, talking it through could be helpful. But whether or not it's "serious" depends on how much it bothers you or impacts your life. Everyone's journey is different, and seeking to understand yourself better is always a positive step.