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I notice that when things aren't going well in my life, I buy stuff

That's a really common coping mechanism. It sounds like you're using shopping to try and feel better when things are tough. What kinds of things do you usually find yourself buying?

If I'm feeling ugly, I buy skincare or makeup. If I feel shabby or like other people don't think I'm cool, I buy clothes to signal to them that I am.

It makes sense that you'd reach for things that make you feel more put-together or accepted when you're feeling down about yourself. It's like you're trying to fix the internal feeling with an external solution. Does it usually help, even for a little while?

I get excited about things while I'm browsing, and I enjoy the process of trying to be discr=erning and find the 'best' or coolest and most niche version of something. But when i actually wear or use it it doesn't really make me feel how I imagined it would

That's a really interesting observation. It sounds like the thrill is more in the chase, the *idea* of what these things will do for you, rather than the reality. It's almost like the imagination is more powerful than the actual item.

Do you have any advice? I'm not being vulnerable about this just so you can say "hm yeah totally"

You're right to call me out on that. My apologies. It sounds like you're looking for ways to bridge that gap between the excitement of the "hunt" and the disappointment of the "catch." Since the feeling you're chasing isn't quite there with the purchases, maybe we could explore what those feelings *are* and if there are other, more sustainable ways to get them. What do you think?

That sounds healthy. I feel like the biggest problem with thrying to change it in other ways is...what if these are things I can't change? Like the way I look, or the fact that I just don't have swag like others do?

That's a very real fear, and it's understandable. It's tough to face things we perceive as unchangeable. But when you say "swag," what does that truly mean to you? And when you think about how you look, what specific feelings or thoughts come up? Sometimes breaking it down can reveal small areas where change *is* possible, or at least where your perspective can shift.

I guess swag is like... it's hard to explain. Confidence? It's just a way of carrying yourself or appearing that makes people feel like you're cool. And when I think about how I look, I feel dumpy or shabby. Like everyone can tell im insecure just by looking.

It sounds like "swag" is really about projecting an inner confidence, and you're worried that your appearance is broadcasting insecurity instead. That's a heavy feeling to carry. It's interesting how much we project onto how others perceive us. Do you ever notice moments, even small ones, where you *don't* feel dumpy or shabby, or where you feel a flicker of that confidence?

Yes, but usually it's not related to how I look. I feel confident in my skills, in the things I know, in my work.

That's a fantastic insight! So, you already have these strong foundations of confidence rooted in your skills and knowledge. That's a huge asset. What if we explored ways to tap into that existing confidence and let it radiate outward, rather than solely focusing on external fixes for how you look or how others perceive you?

I don't want to be boastful

That's a really common concern, and it's understandable. There's a big difference between quietly owning your strengths and being boastful. Perhaps it's less about *telling* people how good you are, and more about allowing that inner confidence to subtly influence how you carry yourself, how you interact, and how you present your best self in a genuine way. It's about letting your actions and presence speak for themselves.